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basketball is my love.
the end.
true story.
yeah well basketball is the reason im not posting as much...been a little busy!!
we havent won a game yet..but we WILL.
i have hope.
OKAY I HAVE TO GO TO A PROJECT ON SUSAN B ANTHONY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
byerz

poem I wrote

I lay down at night and say my prayers
why does it feel like he doesn't care?
my wishes are not made.
my prayers are not answered.
there's rett and "retard" and judging and cancer.

I know he's got a bigger plan
something in mind for me
but when will it start to show up? 
when will I start to see?

his love is bigger than the sky above
he sends peace to us with a beautiful dove 

his heart opens for every one 
no ones left out.
he hears me scream, he hears me shout.

I shuffle my feet
I pace back and forth
I lose my mind
I get knocked off course.

He holds me tight
he doesn't let go
he helps me make it through the night.

God is my savior.
he's the only one.
he made us the world, he gave us his son.

I can't describe in words, how much it means
that he sews me back together when I'm ripping at the seams.

See ya 2011. HELLOOO 2012.

There was so many small little things in 2011 that basically made it the best. Even though there were memorable trips, holidays, events, parties, and amazing weeks spent at camp...
The things that made 2011, were the small things.
The little things that seem so unimportant at times but can just make your day.
Here are some of my favorite things:
Going to visit my Aunt Peggy in the nursing home.
Going to the beach with my friends and making googly eyes and the in-shape lifeguards
Being with Poppy, making every minute spent with him count. Whether it just be sitting in the recliner next to his chatting, or sitting with him at my brother's basketball games.
Seeing some of my favorite people in the hallways at school, like Emmy or Mrs. Deangalo who never fails to make me smile and look on the positive side of things.
Painting nails with my best friends.
Walking to the little playground barefoot watching out for coyotes, and pointing to rainbows as Aaron rides by on his bike talking on his phone with his new girlfriend.
Singing in the shower
Laughing loud and hard
Living life.
These are the certain things that mold me into who I am. They all squish together and make the big things happen that are important to me. No one is going to stop me this year. Not in 2012, not ever now. I am who I am, I'm proud of that. If someone doesn't like me, that's their problem and not mine. I'm ready to start again, with 2012. The year ahead looks amazingly promising, and here are a couple pictures in tribute to my 2011. My first year of some independance.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Punching sheep

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that's how many sheep it should take to count a normal person to fall asleep. I wouldn't even be able to count sheep because I cannot count as high as I can stay up. I'm absolutely positively positive I have insomnia. in fact, sheep annoy me so much when I try to count them I would rather just punch them instead. whoever came up with the idea of "couting sheep" I'm sorry, but you're stupid. how are filthy dirty animals that run around ramming into people going "BAAA BAAA" supposed to help me sleep? yeah I'm done counting them just so I can fall asleep. I would rather flip one off.
tonight I say to my mom "I never can sleep. I wake up all the time in the middle of the night. I wake up early. I think I'm an insomniac" she laughed in my face. I hate that.
just because I'm the child does not mean I'm wrong about this. it doesn't mean I'm wrong about anything. I love being a teen, don't get me wrong. but my parents just don't understand. my fear is they never will.
my life is practically perfect. practically.
but at of the ends of days like this I just wanna crawl in bed and sleep.
and get away from it all.
but I can't. because I have insomnia.
and my mom won't even believe me.
it's not like I'm stupid and I just say I have insomnia. if you want, put me in a room for a week and see if I sleep much. I won't.
every night I just dread going to bed because I know I will toss and turn for hours until I finally fall asleep. and then I wake up an hour later. I long for the days when I could fall asleep as easily as I could say my ABCs.
you don't realize how sleep is a luxury until you can't afford it anymore.
sure, insomnia has it's perks.
I mean, I get a lot of books read.
I can go for a whole 24-hour relay for life.
I can do a bunch of stuff in the day and don't have to worry about homework because I know I can get it done in bed that night.
but still...none of these compare to the downfalls of not getting enoughs sleep.
I wish for one nights sleep this Christmas break where I get nine hours. that's my goal.
while on the topic of Christmas break I hope you all have a really good one. toodaloo

Our song isn't slammin screen doors...it's coming undone!!

I'm here to talk about Rachel.
How long has it been since I talked about her? Two posts, three, maybe? YEAH thats how much I LOVE HER! in a friendly type of way :)
me and her have this song. its called undone by lifehouse. I'm pretty obsessed with it and im not gonna lie im listening to it right now.

this song symbolizes how were always gonna be there for eachother. were gonna be there even when we come undone, everytime we fall.
Thanks rach, for always always being there. forever and always. i love you to the vineyard and back times infinity. if i never find a man to appreciate me my heart's yours till i die ;)

Merry Christmas

I hope you guys have a super duper klagknadnglekj christmas!!

• have some hot coco
• go sledding
• hang out with family
• and eat lots of FOOD!!!

I don't know about you guys but really, this is what my family does for christmas. even if its so cliche and simple, its the best. my family is the best. i couldnt ask for more!! :)
This christmas i am thankful for all the people in my life. for my great friends, my amazing family, and even the people i just pass by in the halls! because even they make my life MINE. sometimes i can be grumpy towards certain people, and some people i dont like. but i am thankful for them anyway. every single person in this world that i have ever come across has taught me something. whether it be to "not be like them, learn from what they do and do the opposite" or "follow them, because theyre amazing" i am thankful for them all. Im especially thankful for a very special someone in my life...(GASP DOES SHE HAVE A BOYFRIEND?!?!?!) nope. no mistletoe for me this year. but the special someone im thinking about is jesus.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!!!
merry christmas everyone have an amazing one!

Sorry I haven't been here in a while! I miss blogging :(...
but its all good!! :)
so i gotta tell you guys about some of my favortie things EVER!!!!!!

My favorite animal: HIPPOS!!!

My favorite color: purple
My middle name: Taylor!! (I like it better than my real name, so it's my favorite)
My favorite place: Martha's Vineyard (props to kelly and rachel for bringing me there!!)

My favorite season: SUMMER!!!!!

My favorite food: popsicles and peanut butter on a spoon
My favorite kind of music/artists: john mayer, jason mraz, michael buble, rachel dalton, mat kearny, sara barielles, jimmy buffet, tswifty, sara barielles, and sugarland!!!!!
I ALSO LOVE MANY OTHER THINGS THAT JUST ARENT ON THIS LIST BECAUSE I CANT SAY "FAVORITE RODENT" WITHOUT YOU GUYS GETTING BORED!!!!!! :)
ill vee vack. (ill be back)

I am human.
I don't always do what is right. or what I am expected to.
I make mistakes.
I lie.
I cheat.
sometimes I do stupid things just to impress someone else.
I smile
I laugh
I cry
I am betrayed.
I don't try and be perfect.
I am not fake.
when there's something on my mind, I say it, even if it hurts others around me. my big mouth always leads to consequence.
i try my best in sports and friendships
and sometimes I slack in school when I could do better.
sometimes I wonder why everybody is so sad
when all I want to do is have fun, and put the past behind.
I am a live for the moment kind of person.
I don't always like myself
how I act
or how I look
but I have learned that being flawless is impossible for everyone
so I try and look past my bad qualities.
my stupid moves have lead to tears
my easy earning trust has lead to heart breaks.
but I like myself and everything I do.
I am not perfect.
I am human.

Skittles

If you took a vote the majority of peoples favorite skittle flavor would be red. it's a given fact to life. then come orange. the comes purple. and hey, who cares about the yellow and green ones right?

if you don't like skittles, I'm sorry to say this post probably won't make sense to you.

usually I feel like a yellow skittle. I'm still a skittle. I still make the whole package..but I'm never the favorite. I'm never the favorite student. never the favorite friend. never the favorite child. never the favorite athlete.

but I'm here to say that I don't wanna be a red skittle anymore. I used to ALWAYS wanna be the best at everything, and be the favorite.

in life people give you labels. popular pretty people are red skittles. athletic people are orange. smart people are grape. and then eh, who cares about yellow and green right? WRONG. It's called "taste the rainbow" for a reason. every single skittle is important and if there was no green skittle, the whole skittle company would be whacked out. and you know its true.

so next time you think about labeling someone, think about how much you might miss that yellow skittle, if one day it just disappeared.